Logic Of The Insane

This is a strange thing I wrote. It’s very personal to me. I believe in order to fully understand why insane people to crazy things, one must be insane at least once in their life. Only then can one see the logic of an insane person and how it’s not actually that crazy… it’s just misunderstood. I wrote this in my hopes to get the message across.

Also, I was given inspiration for this from 2 movies. Enjoy.

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Logic Of The Insane

I’m insane they say, I can hear them.
I like to spend time in the shower sitting down, humming. It’s a nice feeling.
I rock back and forth because the water gets on more places.

But I sit cross-legged so my knees are not in the spray of water.
They go cold.
I lift my head up and let my hair get wet so I can wave it along them,
Back and forth along my knees so they are warm like the rest. I don’t wanna do it any other way.
Then that’s different.
I don’t like standing. It’s too much energy.

If I close my eyes and cover my ears, I can hear the water fall on my head.
It’s like the sound when someone goes crazy. The scary sound effects.
The more I let go of my ears without losing the cover sound,
The louder the water drops. On my neck it sounds different.
I cover my ears, but sometimes let the water drip out.
Then the water sounds like it’s in a shell.

In a shell, it can also sound like the screams of demons.
Then when I can hear the demons, I know I can then block them.
So I get scared of the sounds and cover my ears fully again.

They come and talk to me, ask me to turn off the water, but that’s too quiet then.
They talk, so I look up at them, but the water falls in my eyes and hurts.
I make noises when I hurt. So I stop looking up, to stop the hurt.

When it’s over, they leave towels for me. Not one towel… many. All different colours. I use different ones for different parts.

Head is smallest, so the pink one. Blue for everything but feet, and then the white one for the feet.
I didn’t always do that, they just gave me lots of towels the first time I went shower with clothes on.
So now I like it like this. When they try change it, I get scared. Different colours scare me now.
They made me like this.

Doctor’s Report On Patient #6

Patient is definitively suffering from insanity. She freezes up and runs to the showers when scared.
Only taking some of her clothes off, she sits in the shower and rocks left to right, occasionally stopping and letting her head become soaked, then continues rocking.

She will cover her ears, and mutter things about demons. Local Nurses should comfort her with this. Obviously demons she has made in her dreams.

Speaking to her rarely works. She will look at the speaker, but scream and look back down. Perhaps she is afraid of people standing above her. She doesn’t like any changes and demands the same coloured towels for each of her body part to dry once she is calmed into getting out of the shower.

If any changes are made to her towels, she will get scared and might even return in the shower. Forcefully turning off the water causer her to make a lot of noise. She has said things that show she doesn’t like silence.

Recommend 3 shots a day and a higher dose of pills. Patient should not be reviewed for release for another 3 months.

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A Memory Retold [1] By TDS

A short fan fic by TDS. It’s based on Assassin’s Creed video game.

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Chapter 1: The Night Before It All

The early evening bustled with the villagers of Masyaf. The sun was beginning to dim as Raúl walked into the fortress of the Assassins. In contrast to the village, the Assassin’s fortress was quite empty. A few guards walking around, and in the training ring, Altaïr was swinging his sword, perfecting his technique. He swung, left, then right, a turn, and the sword went out to the right again. Raúl walked up to the ring, and spoke with amusement,

“Greetings, friend. And what compels you to aimlessly swing your sword through air?” Altaïr twirled his curved blade and sheathed it, turning to Raúl, panting from his exercise.

“You apparently have no concept of training. I didn’t rise above your rank by merely sitting around.” The words stung Raúl, but he had to agree: it was true. Altaïr walked out of the ring, closing the wooden gate behind him, and walked up to the table where his equipment lay. He put his hood back over his head, covering his short, dark hair. His short blade, knives, and gauntlet lay on a table to his right. He dressed himself with the equipment, the silver short blade gleaming on his back along with the little knives. Raúl spoke again,

“There’ve been rumors. Richard the Lionheart has taken Acre. Nothing’s been confirmed as of yet, but this ‘Crusade’ is becoming more bloody as they go.” He sighed, distraught over the grim happenings of the Holy Land. Altaïr turned to him, and spoke calmly, but seriously,

“What the Crusaders do does not concern us. We do the Master’s bidding, and so, I must return to my duties.”

“Altaïr!” The voice of a fellow Assassin echoed in the open grounds of the fortress as the Assassin approached Altaïr and Raúl.

“Malak,” responded Altaïr, “what do you run for?”

“Al Mualim wishes to speak with you. I am to bring you to him.”

“Lead the way.” Altaïr left his friend and proceeded to the castle. At the base of the stone stairs stood Malak’s brother Kadar.

“Malak, why’ve you brought me-”

“Because Al Mualim has invited you. You should be glad.”

“I am!“

“Good. Then wait here. The Master is waiting for us, Altaïr,” spoke Malak. Altaïr responded, “I do not see what we’re waiting for.” Malak sulked as he led Altaïr to Al Mualim, the Master of the Assassins.

“Come forth, my students. It is not often that I need more than one man for a mission, but this is a delicate matter. We have reports saying Robert de Sable has supposedly uncovered some kind of ‘treasure.’ They call it “The Piece of Eden.” You two are to go to Solomon’s Temple, as well as Kadar. This is a delicate matter. Retrieve the ‘Templar Treasure’ and ensure Robert de Sable does not possess it. Besides, Malak, your brother could use some experience away from Masyaf. This would be a true mission for him. But remember, do not fail me.”

Malak nodded, “True…He hasn’t left Masyaf in a while. The deed shall be done, Master,” and he bowed to Al Mualim, who bowed his head, and turned to Altaïr, seeking his opinion,

“And what of you, Altaïr? Have you nothing to say of this matter?”

Altaïr gazed out the window, to where the sun was setting. He answered, “I believe if Robert de Sa-” A dull, but loud thump echoed throughout Masyaf, interrupting Altaïr before he could finish. The village suddenly stirred from its slumber, stunned by the noise of this recent event. Al Mualim acted fast,

“Altaïr, Malak, you must go and find out what has happened down there. Leave at once. Bring your weapons.” The white-robed duo rushed down the stairs, Kadar joining up with them, and almost flew from the fortress. From there they free-ran across the buildings of Masyaf. Whatever was going on, it seemed to be by the main gate. Malak and Altaïr leaped, landed, rolled, and ran again, to the main gate. A fairly large group of people were gathered around something. Altaïr pushed through to the middle, and what he saw confused him to no end. Malak finally pushed through and was left with the same expression on his face as Altaïr: bewildered.

A man in strange red clothing was lying face down in the dirt, a dirt trail dug up behind him. An enormous sword was strapped to his back, and his hair was a marble white. Altaïr was dumbstruck.

What in the world-?
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Happy 100th Blog post!

Reawaken Verve Towards Literature

I have not made any Literature projects since my last one, Princess Gold. I’m really feeling I should get back into it.

I have made 4 in total. 1 was a quick Hentai test to see if I can describe sexual situations properly, suggestively and most importantly, pulling the reader into their sexual sides. I was successful and young at the time.

My second attempt was a DMC fan fiction. I failed terrible as it was my FIRST real project. The amount of grammatical errors, miss spellings and repeated use of character’s names (instead of him, her and they) is almost endless and very embarrassing for me. But it’s when I started out.

You can find this heap of trash here. At that time, I was infatuated with a girl named Faith so excuse my use of her. I did base some things on her but not all. I just though of expressing her in my story at the time but I have no interest in her these days and I haven’t contacted her in about 2 years.

Moving on was my third attempt. Tournament X. You can find many past blog entries about it here by clicking on the Literature label at the bottom of this page. It was my attempt at a LONG story. Unfortunately, I found it difficult to keep working on it fluently because it was a team project and I was using myself and my Internet friends as characters. This also made it hard for me to work on. Ending at 60,000 words, the project was disavowed by my hand and is now a memory.

However, if you’re interested, there are still traces and chapters of it left in the Stylish Archives. You can find it here. There is still detailed plot-line information as well as sketch art, characters lists, history and file information. Have a look if you’re interested. But alas, I have disavowed it so it’s old work.

My forth project was a 40,000 word story named Princess Gold. Finalising with only few grammatical hiccups, I was very pleased with it. It’s my current featured piece of literature work that I show people if I am inquired about it. Although not top-notch reading material, obviously, I believe the bases and structure of the story are above average. It felt like tying up loose ends with TX because until PG, I had not made a full, worthy finished literature project.

You can find information and links to reading it, here.

There is also Anime art done by Krizy, a willing woman who majors in the Japanese language and has recently finished a large part of her education.

All water under the bridge for me. Now I ask, what will be my next project? I have many ideas but I am not sure which one to start on. Here is a list, and I’d VERY much appreciate comments and opinions to help me chose the right one. Or even if I should start at all with education and life getting in the way.

• Kanon Fan fiction.[Working Title] A new story detailing another person’s life in the town. How the crash happened and other mysterious things.

• Devil May Cry fan fiction.[Working Title] Obviously, a story idea is pointless, I can think of anything surrounding my favourite game in the world.

• Phlegm. A grim story of a gross city. It’s a so, so kind of story but mainly focuses on corruption, horror, trills and business.

• Folder 9. I’m still working on the idea of this. But it’s supposed to be a mind-twister about a male who works in with files in the future. A very bleak future at that, run with numbers codes deciding the very fate of countries and people. Although the worker begins to grow open minded and soon makes sense of these codes and how they can effect him.

• Shatter![Working Title] – Not too sure. based on time travel. Main character is a young woman who has a small relationship with a man working as the tech guy in horse racing gambling. She stumbles upon a time traveling mirror that reveals the past behind her, her friend and the entire city. Not too keen on this since I don’t believe in time travel or time at that. Irony, ay?

• Sought Through.[Working Title] – Strange idea that crossed my mind. Mainly about a female stalker who is insane about a young boy. The story is actually a lot darker though, and is revealed over time through the boy’s family.

But, I’m totally open to other ideas. I need to start a new project and use whatever skills I have. But most importantly, improve my skills.

Once again, I’d really appreciate comments for this entry. I’ll update if I ever feel like continuing this. Maybe I’ll leave it until I’m ready again, or maybe someone can convince me to go through with it.

Scrap & Skill

Long time no see. I hope my absence is forgiven, sorry.

Anyway, moving on, let me update a bit. Well, I’ve given up on TX. I’m sorry, it’s the truth. I really have no will to continue it. Once I discuss this with David I can finally sweep TX off my desk of work. I have hopes that he will not take it too hard. But I really feel TX is holding me back in every way and I do wish to continue in literature. Other than that, I’ve just been making signatures and things like that. I finished BG TEST. You can view it here, but give it a minute to load first.

I’ve also made this Vergil wallpaper.

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Other than that, I’ve gone over so many ideas. What should be an animation, what should be a book? I can’t decide. Books are a lot easier but animations get noticed more. Also, will I stay with stick animations? I was thinking of a stick-styled cartoon. Some sort of new character like the madness characters in Madness Combat by Krinkles. I don’t mean SIMILAR to that, I just mean with a new style of body that can be worked with in action. Of course, this will take some time and I might not even get it done. What am I saying? I always doubt myself like that… I really have to stop. Once I get deep into flash, I’ll soon need to know how to draw better. So that means… yes *Sighs*

I’ll have to get into drawing again. I suck at it… but it’s a must have quality if I want to get anywhere with this. So I’ll just try and draw whenever I can. If I ever do get exceptionally good at drawing, I might create some nice Anime or whatever pictures, digitally edited and refined like Slipkorn’s or all the things you see on Deviant Art. Speaking of Deviant Art… here is my profile on it. I don’t really like Deviant Art because it’s way over-complicated but I do love that it has so many great… no… INSANELY BRILLIANT artists on it and it also holds much of their work. I go there to look up at the fine, talented people in this world. I want to be just like these people. And I WILL become either on par or better than the average GOOD deviantation. I have confidence.

Thing now is, what will be my next creation? Another test animation to see my character creations skills? A new story perhaps? God, I don’t know. I’ll have to think for a good while about this one. As for Stylish, I have not updated because there really isn’t anything to update except for the new wallpapers. I did add some Anime by Slipkorn a while back.

I might become a designer of HDTV wallpapers for the PS3. The PS3 now has a wallpaper setting and HDTV (and non-HDTV) owners are looking for high-class, HD wallpapers usually involving a game they like. I could become a designer for these and throw in many DMC related creations. It could raise awareness for the site, too.